A Sincere Sorry and Forgiveness.

This purpose is dedicated to sumone who might not actually come to read this blog but still I really dont know where I can express this sorry-ness and forgiveness. It is juz here that I can actually type all I want and let go of everything. Yes indeed I lost sumthing reallie precious to me lately although that particular person do not how it or don't even bother about it. I really have no idea anymore. To trade a secret for sumthing so high in price, I do start to doubt it. I did what I think I suppose to do and yet I know I cant satisfy everyone. I have no right to ask for anything actually. It is my wrong doing. Perhaps what I did was reallie wrong after all. I havta bear the consequencce of all this. The pain in the heart is just so hard to accept. Tried my best to recover, but I know it's kinda impossible already. What is done is done. Will everything be that way forever?. I seriously do hope not.. I dun wan it to be part of the dark life i ever had so far. We are talking about all this friendship, committment, work and all these. It's being a tough road. If I were to be able to do sumthing, I will reallie do it. It's been a long way seriously and am I just a person that you look through from the outer side only? I guess the trust is not there after all. I cant achieve the trust from a person that I suppose to. Its is the faliure of mine. Sincere sorry and forgiveness....

In doubt...

Have u ever stop a while and start to think whether what you have done all these while is right?. I guess everyone needs to go this part of life after all. Never come about it till lately. What that I have done so far is right or wrong. In the eyes of many people, what i did lately might be sound unacceptable to them. I think the consequence for this stuff is far within what I can accept at times. It's reallie not easy to undergo the route I am taking now. Am I so insensitive in taking care peoples feeling?. Am I doing something things that I not suppose to do after all?. All this question pops out lately. I seriously need to think about all these things that is happening rite now again.. Perhaps it is my failure in doing what I am suppose to do.......